Reblogged from buckybarnesing
I’m just sick of having them. And I’m sick of the unresolved conflicts with my ex. Who has gone out of her way time and time again to avoid confronting me because she knows what a cunt she’s been. But whatever. I don’t care anymore. However, there are other things I DO care about that I wish I could just feel apathetic towards. But what can I do? Not a god damn thing. As per fucking usual.
lol wow i forgot i was still following you until now
also funnily paradoxical how you say you’re sick of the unresolved conflict and then go on to say you don’t dare
ALSO i don’t owe you an explanation for taking care of my emotional/mental state :)))))
You don’t owe me any explanation for why you didn’t want to be friends, and don’t want to be, but it would have been nice to hear something instead of radio silence as I had confided in you regarding one of the biggest life-changing decisions I was faced with. But instead, you chose to just ignore me entirely. Cool beans. Even if it was just a 'fuck off and go join the Army, I don't give a shit', I’d have been happier because at least then you’d have FINALLY been honest with me. Instead, you chose to hide behind ‘being busy’ or screening my calls or just not giving a fuck at all. I didn’t need to be deluded into thinking we could have been friends, and for god knows how long before that.
That being said, it’s a bit pretentious of you to think you’re the only ex I have. Wasn’t even about you, as a matter of fact. But thanks for the opportunity to get that out in the open, it’s about time I dealt with that too. The day you decided I wasn’t important enough to find out, in what would have taken 5 minutes from your oh-so-busy schedule, why I wasn’t joining the Army and possibly throwing my entire life away. You didn’t care. You don’t care. You never wanted to be friends. For all I know, you never wanted to date me to begin with. But that’s over.
But most importantly of all, this is my blog. I’ll vent here. I thought that was the whole point of Tumblr. Isn’t that why you suggested I make one in the first place? You know, when you were pretending to be interested in me? So I’ve been posting what I want, when I want to my blog, and will continue to do so. Anything else you’d like to take care of while we have this fantastic opportunity to talk? I’m frankly amazed to even hear more than a word out of you, considering you go so out of your way to avoid me.
Yeah, I was working at the bookstore when I saw you and your mom come in about 2 months ago. I saw you look into the cafe, see me, turn around, and very particularly choose your path across the store to avoid me at the maximum possible distance. Mature. Do you really think I’m going to do or say anything to you whatsoever to make things awkward either a) in public, or b) at my JOB? Try again, sister.